Saturday, 13 September 2014

4 Days.

Five, sitting idly.
In an open-aired small hall, all breezy  and windy.
Oh, everyone seems to know each other..
..but me.
Well, I can be friendly and bubbly..all chatter and laughter.
..but this whole thing kinda kills me.
Shutting up my mouth, speak if it's necessary.
I remain silent waiting till the end, this is so unlike me.

Stairs, walking down slowly..
I look at him, puzzled, yet a lil bit frothy
Does he know me?
Nope..Maybe not? Umm..definitely?
"'s me."
Oh! That WeChat guy with a cunning id!
Who is way more fluent in English, compared to this petty fatty me..
Well, the providence, tends to be uncanny..and sometimes, kinda..funny.
We talk about puns, good movies e.t.c..
Oh, and a sports car of his, maybe?
..but, never the names, or exact details, precisely..

Me. overseas grad who stutters.
Lost in the middle of those american-accent utterances.
Insecurity overwhelms me.
I need more practice, thus, help me..
Maybe I can type or write, quite nicely..
..but my mind blanks out my full-English conversation, infuriatingly.

Why the poem, you ask me?
Incisively yet a bit circuitously..
We, as friends. You and me?

Laugh all you want if it's too cheesy.

Wednesday, 18 June 2014

That Kid

I decided to stay in that class for a relief period..well, coz I had no better things to do and that 'anak angkat' kid looked a bit gloomy. So, I stayed and had a casual chat with a few pupils when he started to join in. He leisurely walked towards me and sat on my lap before a girl shouted, "ee manjanya!". Haha. Sure, I don't mind..maybe he doesn't get to sit on his parents' lap since they are so damn busy with work..maybe?

Yesterday, I was welcomed into that class with an enormous joyful cheer of "YEAY!" for a relief period. I was beyond touched..well..maybe coz that was the first time I ever entered their class? I don't know.

..and yesterday too, that kid tackled that seungri-lookalike boy when he was running towards me,

"She's my mummy!"
"No, she's my mummy!"
"No, mine!"


The idea of 'anak angkat' wasn't triggered by me. He mentioned it when a Year 6 boy asked me what's the relationship between me and the kid coz we seemed quite close. So, the next day, I introduced him to other students as my 'anak angkat' and he seemed pretty happy about it..well, to the extent of coming into my class and gleefully asked me whether he could stay there to learn from me..aww... :')

Using the recess break to spend time with the boy, well, to be honest, I feel rather contented of having him as my so-called 'anak angkat'..

To be honest, this place is sucking the happiness out of me like a fucking dementor..but heyy, look at the bright side, I've gotta meet this boy, who actually just got transferred from another school.

"If I didn't get transferred, I wouldn't have the chance to meet you, teacher."

Thursday, 12 September 2013

Play. Fun. Happy.

It was fun yesterday!

Well, the Year 6 students are sitting for their UPSR this week so the other students either stay at home enjoying their hols or come to school and play at the hall/field.
I didn't go to the hall with the kids yesterday as I was busy helping the music teacher with the mini-studio (in return, I got to learn how to play drum! How cool is that? Haha!)
So, I went to the hall yesterday, along with the other prac teachers.
I wandered around. I saw a basketball.
I picked it up, went outside and started dribbling.

"Ohh..this is fun."
Yeah, I couldn't even remember when was the last time I ever played this..first year in Brisbane?
I don't, I went to the prac & new teachers and asked them if they wanted to play..actually, all of them voted for netball (man..) but still, we went downstairs and started to plan how were we gonna play it since there was no netball court.
They were busy talking and then I saw something at the building nearby..

"Basketball court! Hey, we have a basketball court at the gym!"
..and thus, we started playing a fusion of basketball and netball ahaha~
We had a fun time playing and after a while we stopped.
I was tired but the thought of playing really intrigued me so I continued dribbling around and shooting.
Well, I was never a fit kid so I never really got a chance to play anything at school. My first time playing this game was in high school..form 3? form 2? PJ time..then, I asked my teacher if we could play it again for the PJ time..I'm pretty sure she said yes..but hey, I finished my form 5 and no basketball during PJ time ever since that day..I know..I still remember this coz I was damn frustrated mann..haha

Anyway, all the teachers went to the hall after we finished playing.
I was bored so I took the ball with me and went to the volleyball court outside with two students from my class who happened to be around at that moment.
My Chindian kid joined me too so there were 3 students altogether with me.
I taught them how to play basketball eventhough I know nothing haha~
Just dribble and shoot would be enough for now I guess :P
So, we played for a while and more kids joined us so I left the ball with them and went to the field.
Some students were playing rugby, practising throwing the ball and all while others were having an inter-class football match.
Called up a kid and said "Hey, wanna teach teacher how to play rugby?"
Again, more students came and I left them to play and went to the football kids.
There, they taught me how to kick the ball properly. Fun! XD
Ryan and his friends were really enthusiastic to teach and give me the chance to play.
We played until it was time for us to go for recess.
I was walking and talking with my students when Ryan turned around and said that he wanted to join me for recess. Yeah kid, sure! (it was rare for him to say that to me, unlike the other kids thus, the highlight lol)

Uno sesh took place after recess and I had a chance to spend time with my Chindian kid more than usual :3
We played and talked.
A notorious kid from other class took my iphone and ran away so, like Joffrey with his king's guards I shouted "Chase him!!" and my students did. Indeed, it was funny!
Izriey, a student from my class suddenly held my hands like we were in a Korean wrestling. I didn't know what he was doing so I swept his leg and tripped him down (I held his hands so he won't injured his head as he fell on his back). Ryan, who was sitting nearby looked at us with an amazement and started to clap his hands, uttering compliments. Haha, really kids? I should really be like that Gokusen teacher right? Haha :P

Today was tiring but it was helluva fun!! (which caused me to sleep early and missed my mom's call lol)
What really made me think was the moment when those students were so eager to teach me what they know and really give me the chance to try out what I've kids, thanks for this :')

Sunday, 18 August 2013


I ate a whole bowl of chocolate mousse.
I was on a bus to kL.
..and, I was bored.

Thus, I started tweeting about my crush when I was in high school..
Continuous tweets forming a short story I guess haha.
Well, crush? No..not really..
He was someone that I really looked up to coz he's just so perfect, so smart, so good looking haha. the tweets went on and on till I realized that..good god Hanni stop it!

He knew I was talking about him so..

I read his blog..
Seems like he's broken..
..but hey, he's always a shining star to me. A perfect one that is.

To you, if you ever read this..and if you need someone to talk to, I'm all ears, Kaede :)

Tuesday, 9 April 2013


Everyone knows who T.O.P is, right?
One of the biggest hallyu stars, a sparkling diamond of a Kpop band named Big Bang who owns a magnificent, heart-melting voice.

I dreamt about him last night. *total shock*

I'm not a fan..nor did I think about him before I slept. No. I just..don't know.

I forgot how it all started but I remembered having a dinner with him at a fancy restaurant with his other band mates & a few hardcore Big Bang fans.
Somehow, I ended up sitting next to him. Eh?
Well, we talked and talked. Of course we really enjoyed our conversation as I could see him laughing earnestly and smiling continuously. Gorgeous. Oh, we really did have fun :3
The night resumed with him putting his long legs next to mine while talking and laughing. Others were looking with jealousy but I didn't bother, we were talking about Doctor Who for God sake! Haha!

As how other beautiful dreams didn't last forever, mine was also leading to an end.
I watched T.O.P left. Oh, but..wait! He walked into a jewelry shop nearby and bought a ring.
He looked at me and with his dazzlingly handsome voice, he said,
"There're so many people here, let's go somewhere else!"
This young adonis then walked away, letting me slowly tip-toe, following him from behind.

I glanced at his firm shoulders, at his lustrous sky blue celeste hair and wondered what would happen next.

I happily strolled down the path we were heading to without realizing that I tardily stepping back into the reality.


The white ceiling. I stared at it blankly for a few seconds. Feeling totally in a daze. Oh, the numbness.
The numbness that made me hate myself for a little while. Why did I wake up? Why did I open my eyes?
The numbness of getting my high hopes shattered to pieces. Broken. Scattered and tattered.

I tried so hard to close my eyes and let the slowly-fade-away memory stir in my mind.
Disappointment found me.
I lost in the battle of a brilliant dream..


Self-reflection: splendiferous dream was crushed to disordered pieces coz I broke my plan to fast today? Astaghfirullahalazim T______T

11.11 am
9th April 2013
*credits for pictures: world-wide web*

Sunday, 31 March 2013

Of mata kucing, senyap and a silver metallic viva~

So, how's everything?
Hopefully everything is good lah no?
InsyaAllah (=゚ω゚)ノ


It all started coz of Twitter. Random...thing to do I guess? ahahaha~
Or, was it because of a book?

Anyway, it was my third time meeting him, yepsss he's still as always~
Sydney, Gold Coast and Kedah.
Um, he has a beautiful home, with friendly parents yang sangat ceria.
Rumah yang cantik dan kemas. *jelly*

"Cantiknya rumah..."
I looked around while listening to his mom's talk about Fossil handbags.

So far, I've never met a person with such opinions...or ideas.
As simple as may I appear, my mind also works the same way. Simple. I can't comprehend complicated things, or else, I'll forget..them.. *absent-minded person* haha~
To what he said, I just responded with an awe & "Ha'ah! Setuju!" or "Betul! Betul!" *saying betul only twice, trying not to sound like upin & ipin*

"I value your thoughts and those responses were sincere."

Lots of people were looking at him, or at least gave him a glance when...
...we walked into the restaurant...
...we were at the mall...etc

"Woaaa...are you that famous?"

I had this thought that of course, his fans wanted to take a photo with him but, maybe they were shy to approach him?

"Mak cakap aku ni memang taktau malu."
If I ever see my fave celebrities at a mall, I'd totally approach them for a photo.
Bila lagi, kan?
..oh yes, I don't mind taking photos for his fans coz..
Bila lagi, kan?
They say, when you make others happy, you'll feel the same way too :)

I enjoyed the nasik ayam, Bola Kampung the movie and the Starbucks chat.
If it was a date, it was a magnificent one I'd say :D
Eh, please don't get the wrong idea, we're friends & I really respect him.

"So girls, he's interesting. If you're gonna date him, just please don't waste that rare opportunity. Blimey, he's an amazing person, absolutely one of a kind :)"

For all these, I just wanna say Alhamdulillah and...maybe it'll be sup daging Kedahan style instead of a glass of sarsaparilla drink next time? Hew hew hew~

3.45 pm
31st march 2013

Wednesday, 17 October 2012

Simple Happy Moments

I'm sooo super super happy right now & I really feel that I seriously should write about it. Well, guess it's one of those days which take your breath away aye? Oh yeah, this entry is from my iphone coz I've got no pc but I seriously wanna write about it. Yeaaa coz I'm happy like that. Haha!

First of all,it started with a Twitter reply from Alex Williams last night. Who's Alex Williams, yo??? *Jesse Pinkman's voice*
He's an Australian actor who stars in Undrground: Julian Assange Story.
Then again, who the heck is Julian Assange, yo?????
For God sake,just google it will ya?!
Lols man...just kidding~
Julian Assange is an Australian hacker, one of the most wanted people on earth. Some might see him as a criminal but for me, he's awesome and he just wants mankind to know the truth, yo! Yeah, this is a real story ladies and gentlemen. Embrace it. Watch the movie and you'll fall in love with Julian Assange & of course, the young and gorgeous Aussie actor, Alex Williams.
Anyway, this is a screen cap from Twitter. *hoping that the image will appear here not elsewhere*

Secondly, I ran into my handsome Brit neighbour, Sammy earlier today and my Aussie actor neighbour, Nick in the evening. Nick was talking about having KFC with his housemates for dinner & I was like...mannn I should totally have this finger-lickin-good chickens yo!
Ran into Ying & we went straight to nearby KFC for dinner *winning*
There, sat there three familiar faces, having fun and laughing. Omg! Nick, Sam and Ben! We had a quick chat & left coz I totally didn't want Ying to wait. We went to woolies sice she wanted to buy milk.
Oh hello, Nick & Sammy again~
I walked to the aisles with them & had these fun chats. These guys are hilarious! Nick with his charming-sweet talks & Sammy,oh Sammy...I just love your British accent *super-thumbs-up*
Nick was joking about having kids together. Mannn...I would totally fall for that if you were serious *damn right*
Aussie boys, they're sweet talkers you harm done, you'll just love what they say. As simple as that.
Anyway, we passed by a yogurt shop named 'Berry Me' so I said "Berry me?" with an intention of "Hey, anyone's up for Berry Me yogurt?"
Nick was like "Marry me?" "I'll do all the acting and you'll do all the cooking."
Classic Nick. Sweet. Well, we continued talking about having me at their place for dinner someday *tell you Aussie guys are so sweet, not to mention they're super decent and fun too - bf/hubby material yo!*
Continue...and about how Nick could get involved in film industry as an actor, how the modelling will do good to our tall handsome English gentleman, Sammy boy and some other stuffs. It was quick before Sam left to watch footy and I bid Nick with "I'll see you on tv soon!"
Love these boys, should totally have a movie sesh with ice-cream someday!

Another thing that made me happy?
Owww yeahhh, as Nick would say how I do love boys, I'll talk about girls too, yo!
Lizzy, the super-sweet Aussie girl ever just gave me late birthday presents. Yeah, presents...plural, yo!
They're Typo merchandises! Ain't a hipster but I just love all these vintage stuffs! Oh Typo is quite expensive. So getting Typo stuffs would really make as happy as a lark! Thanks heaps lizy! You're awesome!!!!

I should totally get a pc to add caption to these photos & rearrange them. Oh well, I should continue watching Breaking Bad now! Ta! XD Please pray for me to get married to an Aussie guy with blue/green eyes ya? Amin~ :P